My mom is doing some women's retreats on the topic of hope and asked me how hope is viewed differently in Cameroon or how my view of hope has changed. In Cameroon, you never hear someone 'hope' for a material thing. No one ever says "I hope to get enough money to make a bigger house". Even the much-to-do people of the hospital live in little village-type houses like everyone else and there is not the need or want to have something bigger. Values are placed in people, enough food, and getting a good education (it costs them money to send their children to school).
People take accidents and death as a natural part of life. There is no anger at God for pain. Nobody that I have talked to ever asks "Why is God doing this to me?" Pain is a fact of life and they are so grateful that you are trying to help even if it doesn't seem to make a difference. I was talking to a patient to has become dear to me about pain. She is in the hospital and might not have enough money to stay in a hospital bed, but she might be able to sleep on a mat on the cement floor. Every time I talk to her, she tells me how good God is. That he has given her life and a wonderful family and loves her. If God chooses to humble her by having her sleep on the floor, then she will gladly be humbled by God, she said. How many people in the States say that. Working in the U.S. health care system, I hear people trying to get the most out of things and angry if they can't get the best of a certain service or demanding sometihng else. If God chooses to humble you, would you joyfully take in it. Would I delight and rejoice in suffering for my Savior? Or would I complain, be angry or try to demand people to help. Would my pride overcome me? The testimonies that have stirred my heart have always been the ones of people who are in such pain or difficulties and yet, are full of joy and love and thankfulness to God. Hope that God will bring them to healing. Hope that if not, God will not leave them even so. Hope that they will be truly reunited with God in the end. Every time someone dies in the hospital, their caregiver and family scream and wail for at least 5-10 minutes. You can hear their screams echo throughout the halls. All other noise seems to stand still.
I would say that I still have my different hopes in this life, that hasn't changed. But the way I view my hope for the eternal has a little bit. I still remember going to London with John Samuel to visit a church and try to start a missions trip over there. The service that day was full of missionaries from all over the world. We sang songs praising God in worship in some Indian language. 30 some different primary languages singing in unison, harmonizing with one another. From all over the world, so many different stories and cultures, but we were one. We all had Jesus. Just think of how heaven will really be like. So many different people from different places and ages-all in unison and harmony at the same time. God is good. I hope to be able to see the people I have met here and grown to love again in heaven. My goodbyes to them aren't really goodbyes as much as 'see you later'. God is Good.